Let go of the numbers. Calories, weight, measurements…stop putting yourself in situations where you’re going to start counting. Black out the calories on boxes with permanent marker. Get rid of your scale and measuring tape. Use your coping skills when you catch yourself trying to count calories.
Letting go of the control and the numbers is a huge step towards recovery. It takes time to let go completely, but if you keep making an effort, it will come. Keep fighting.